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Friday, March 14, 2014

am I getting worse, or better? I don't think it is the latter.

Things might be turning worse instead of better.

My mental health. I have been getting panic attacks like how people grab food at buffets. I don't know how to describe it, it is just... very bad.

I have seen my doctor about it and he switched me from xan*x to val*um but I just got a panic attack and took both. I cannot remember if he said I should stop the xan*x or not.

I fear the worst. I am doing mad things like crouching on the bed, telling my thoughts to go away, and when I am lucid I work well and fine, but when I am not, I just become a psychotic person.