Friday, December 30, 2011
A better day
I told myself today would be a better day. The truth is, even as I awoke for no reason at five in the morning, I already felt the same sadness I felt for the past two days. The day has started in sadness, waves of it. And I tell myself today will be a better day.
Is this even possible? That even in sadness, my day will be better today than yesterday was?
I wonder why the Bible says, "Sow in tears, reap in joy." The tears are literal? If so I am staring at my computer screen blurry eyed. If so then I will work while I am in pain, if I can even think coherently.
In any case, like any other day, I will try. Try to work, try to stay alive. Today will be a better day, somehow.