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Sunday, October 10, 2010

this week's emotional health

This whole week I have been a bundle of irritable nerves, almost always feeling about to get angry. Listless, sluggish, lethargic, can barely get myself out of the bed, let alone out of the house. I only left the house once in the whole week and that was Saturday evening. Good enough for me, I reckon. I felt totally anti-social, shutting off my phone, and the thought of leaving the house filled me with fear of oncoming noise pollution.

I have been taking my meds, and upping my protein intake as doctor has advised, and am also taking the omega oils, and exercised. All it makes me feel is not sad, just a tad mad. Often. I am so irritable but not enough to be borderline crazy. Instead of feeling very depressed I feel numb. If taking the omegas does this to me I rather feel something and take the right meds for it, than to have a numb, irritable, lethargic sensation.

I would rather stare into space than do productive things. I can't even bring myself to shower more than once a day, for most days this past week.

I have to get out of this funk as soon as possible because I have work to do; a big-ticket copywriting assignment. Maybe tomorrow will be a brand-new start to a great week. There you go, a glimmer of resolve, a sliver of optimism.