Today will be day 4 of my hospital stay. I am no longer soaking tissues with tears and the painful sadness that is depression, augmented, is back at the recesses of my library of feelings, stowed away for now.
Like I told my doctor I don't feel 'happy' on this new med, Stablon, just - not sad. To me it is good enough. He says, "But I want you to be happy!"
I don't think it is possible. My brain is just not capable of producing the happiness feeling. I have come to terms with this probable fact.
It doesn't matter.