Tuesday, February 26, 2008
rage and pain
I have a lot of rage in me. Right now. Often.
This is why I need exercise.
This is why I crave alcohol daily.
This is why I need Xan*ax.
This anger has no reason. It just IS. It just exists. It just remains.
Until I medicate.
Yes, I am still sad. Despite functioning normally and living life in a seemingly hyper-elaine, energetic way.
I am still sad.
I still hurt.
It still hurts.
I am still angry.
I am still sad.I just can no longer do very much about it.